Behind every bride is that best friend who has been with them throughout the way and who is as excited as the bride. We may not call each other that way these days but I hope I was on that level once upon a time. The mixed emotions of joy and sadness also grip me.We both made plans of her wedding day and I would love to see her walk the aisle into the love of her life. But unlike all those bestfriends, I will not be seated in front for I am not sure if I am welcome.
Whatever happened to us?
We've been friends since forever. Despite all the rifts that we had in the past, we remained close and acted as support for each other. We boosted each others morale during those times when our careers were just gaining momentum and comforted each other during the trying times. I have always viewed the friendship as the closest I ever had but I guess we do not share opinions.
Imagine having a friend whom you can lean on in times of pain and celebrate with in times of joy, won't you place your full trust in them? I guess I have been unfair in treating our friendship that way. I see friendship as few but deep relationships while you view it as a party. Nevertheless, looking back at the years of friendship I have no regrets but pure gratitude for standing by me despite all those insecurities I have. Whatever your intentions maybe or whether you were completely honest or not are all water under the bridge now.
We have separated ways and have not talked for a long time. A lot of our common friends are asking whatever happened to the duo who seemed tight once upon a time. I offered no answers until now. We have finally arrived at the same definition of friendship where there is no space for assumptions. We now have a clear view of how we stand in our lives and there are no more ill feelings for the shortcomings of a friend.
I hope that on your wedding day you too weed out all the hate you have towards me. While I wish you the best in life, I ask for your forgiveness for the years that I lacked the courage and enthusiasm to give our friendship a chance.I hope that you have picked up something when our roads met in this highway called life.
