caught in crossfires

just imagine if vice president binay would plan on leading an ouster of president aquino, how would he achieve it? philippine history reveals that people power has been a very effective tool in achieving such endeavor. Not just once but twice did the people out a president for two varying reasons and conditions. if the vice president would resort to such mechanism, how can he do it? it will surely start with the brewing of malice and controversies that would elicit the support of the populace to the accuser and away from the accused.

in the process of making issues, controversies and slanderous statements, who will stand to validate those claims. It would be some small people who would eventually be tagged as whistle blowers who risk their selves for some period of recognition of their valor. some hail them as heroes, some would see them as traitors but not much actually paid attention to the fact that they were just used because of selfish gains.

after the crossfires are over, what is left in the battlefield? standing is the victor and the pawns are left to fend for themselves... yet we never learn from this paradigm..

Spaces

i got nominated to be a part of the Boart of Trustees for the MBA Society at my graduate school. Among those 20 who were also nominated, I was the sole soul to back out. I can feel that some of the people are disappointed with what i did but i can not stop but think that I do hold the decisions for my life. Besides, it will not be convenient anymore if i make such commitment. I am working full time as an analyst as well as teach 3 subjects part time. Those alone excluding my post graduate studies are stressful enough. yet I love teaching and i can not simply leave my job for I feel I am needed. Not now that there are resignations will they welcome my resignation. Somehow these factors are making me sustain all the balls that I joggle in life. Few people understand it. They would say that all of us are busy and we all feel the same. That is not fair for I do doubt if they really know half of the burden I am carrying.

memory touch

I am not sure anymore if distance is what I really need with people. I thought at first that my alienation towards closed knit relationships on groups can be heavily attributed to the closer ties most of the members have since they are friends from the beginning. It is only now I realize that the problem can actually be me just afraid of fostering a closer relationship with them. It is my attitude to severe any forming relationships because I believe that without any concrete reasons, there is no need for a strong relationship. So it goes that up to my age now, I really do not have people whom I can claim to be very close with. Almost everyone has that best friend whom he or she can confide the problems and the joys of life. As for me, I think I have no one but my self. Not that I pity myself for being lonesome on most aspects but I can sense that I am an outcast to the definition of camaraderie. Even if I would claim to be actually happy which I really am, it would not hold true because society would not agree. Yet I feel satisfied with that situation. What I do to appease my questioning is to think that once in my life, I have touched others lives just enough to make them remember who I am. 

Maam Google

I always admire my adviser and my Beverage management teacher for her beauty poise and knowledge of the subject matter she teaches. She is  the sole person I know who gets drunk gracefully. Now that it is my turn to teach beverage management to students, I always look up to how she taught me the lesson. She is the benchmark of how a teacher must teach Bev management. I even use the handbook she co-authored with another teacher in my attempt to completely duplicate the educating and informative learning experience with her. She is in Korea now and I can not get to her to ask few tips on how a neophyte like me must handle the pressures of the course. Even if I can not reach Maam Guggi... i relied on Maam google to supplement the lacking knowledge...

Firts Day bloopers

First day of classes and I actually woke up 30 minutes before the start of my first class. Maybe because I slept late the other night after spending some quality time with my catering classmates whom I have not seen for a while. Now that I am late for my classes, I hurried to school knowing that from my residence it is a 2 hour travel. Thank God for the MRT and LRT that I made it to the school in 45 minutes. Another flop however is that I have not printed my class schedule yet and that I do not know where my classrooms are. That took me another 20 minutes making me an hour late for my classes. Still, God loves me because the teacher actually did not discuss anything important.

role switch

All of the sudden, I realize that I am not a student and that my enthusiasm is misplaced on the first day of classes. For I am a teacher now and I said that on the first day of my classes, I will not joke because today is teachers day... Although I made the mood of the class seem awesome, I really despise the encounter with some students who are so rowdy. First day of class and I am yet to determine if I am ready indeed to conquer teaching. 

I'll never lend this way again

I find the manner with which a friend of mine confronted? a debtor who chooses to ignore the asking for the payment. For me, I do not easily loan money for it is so difficult for me to ask the person to pay for it much more to force her to pay for it. Actually most of the methods that can substitute the actual confrontation became available with the dawn of technological advances. Text messaging and email really made it easy to ask for the loaned money without actually showing how off it is to do it. But the social networking sites I must say make this ordeal more fantastic as it do not limit the involvement to only two people.

Now this friends of mine after several attempts to ask for the borrowed money and ended up getting ignored, posted a status on FB clamoring for a certain Lady Allison to pay. Now it went embarrassing as people commented and made fun of the debtor. Much worse, they hit the appearance of the lady which is actually out of the question. This made me think if this lady thought of this condition and weighed if the public humiliation is worth the debt.